Friday, October 5, 2007

No,I'm not a paedophile

A sixteen year old shyly avoided my gaze as I walked to office this morning. And that was definitive because I finally inferred what is it about pre-adolescent, adolescent and just-out-of adolescence boys that attracts me to them so much.

It’s their blissful ignorance about how their gaze can melt a woman’s heart, can pry her out of her skin; of how their scowl can make her walk a tightrope; how their touch can stir a fire that died years ago or was dying such that it would extinguish in years to come.
The way their eyes can dress up and dress down all inhibitions of a woman; how their words can strike chords in a woman and make music that rivals Beethoven; how their words can stir a revolution and quiet a stir at the same time. How a woman would love to feel up his jaw line and mark it with a string of kisses; to lead his hands as he explores her realms.

I’m attracted to him because of his age of innocence, because of the power of his innocence, the innocence that I lost in some era long gone.

The fact that I’ve lost this innocence and he hasn’t makes us lock gazes long enough or brief enough for just a few nictations before he looks away. He starts questioning why’s this woman staring at me and looks away as he doesn’t want to address the question to me and I look away because I don’t want to look like a paedophile.

And we walk our own ways…

26 comments:

i spoke to you last night.... said...

The imperative at the end of this piece is a rhetorical construct that you use frequently( This is what I inferred from your blog). You weave your magical web of life fragments, intoxicating descriptions of your own experiences and finally juxtapose them to create an illusion(YES), but you never abstain from giving direction to the reader. The directions here , might be to observe the adolescents carefully/sinfully/ Unashamedly.

Or is the last line an appeal to hope( to the orthodox/non-adventurous folk) , that there is a course of action that can be taken which leads one out of the dense emotional forest(The moment when one is spellbound) ?

“And we walk our own ways…”

The imperative peeking through reminds the reader that there is will in the writer and not just another dreamy voice walking through the universe and ‘fetishising’ things and the life within those things.(Dont kill me for this)

Gaurav said...

The character wants to reverse life & live teenage again..is surely an innocent person..since she is hooked up by the everyday toxic life..cool enuf..gud effort..may be someday u wud like to be tat way..

Fake Man said...

Jelly! You aint degenerating; its just that at times we tend to feel like this. For instance, smile of a kid, or bum of a crying child. One cannot be termed as pervert if he/she gets pleasure.

Keep Rocking

MoonStone said...

@fake man

you sir, are a BIG effin' pervert... no matter how much you deny it...

bum of a crying child.... come on!!

@the flower I adore

are you sure he looks away for that particular reason...
I mean, isn't there the slightest of chance that he might not be interested?? :o ....
or maybe not attracted to you at all?? ;)

That could be the case, right?!! ... yours truly is just exploring the scenario... 8)

Jasmine said...

yours truly has not seen me,I can understand the cause for his even thinking up such a possibility.
@ your @Fake Man:
I don';t think he'd deny it!

Japna said...

i'm converting!!

this is a foolish/perve thought said...

innocence aka virginity??

MoonStone said...

@the flower I adore...

hey hey!!... are you suggesting we should see each other now... :x
don't you try to flirt with me... ok!!

i spoke to you last night.... said...

"moonstone", in the Amazonian rain forest there are tribes of Indians as yet untouched by civilization who've developed more convincing pick up lines than yours...

"the flower i adore"!!! ooh come on!

dhaval said...

it is really interesting what plays role in developing relations between two persons. it may be chemistry or genes or something else which decides it unConsciously first before we think of other factor, which is commuicated through body language unconsciously.just as one cannot explain why he may like some particular more than other
you have portrayed the situation nicely

MoonStone said...

@ I spoke.....

wow!! someone's feeling jealous.... right?? why are you so possessive?? she didn't even say anything to me .... I mean a little joke here and there is a problem now... eh??

anyway.. you seem to know the Amazonian rain forest tribes in some detail... great!! you must be related to them.. is it so??

Jasmine said...

And...
Lot's been happening over the weekend here..
@Dhaval,
Really nice to see you here,thanks for your comment!
@I spoke to you...
Been a while since we did this together!
@Moonstone,
Am I to be flattered by overt-confidence?
@This is a foolish/pervert...
You're wrong-it's not Foolish"/"pervert,it's Foolish "and" pervert!!!And I'm so sad the thesaurus between your ears only lodges virginity next to innocence!
@japna,
really woman!?!

i spoke to you last night.... said...

You've really worked out your banter, haven't you? This is a different thing. It's spontaneous and it's called `wit'


wow!!
Err…Eureka eureka?

someone's feeling jealous.... right??

Wrong. Unless the definition of ‘jealous’ in your vocabulary is “Mocking a nincompoop who comes up with the wackiest of pick-up lines”

why are you so possessive??

Why are you so stupid?

she didn't even say anything to me .... I mean a little joke here and there is a problem now... eh??

She said a lot to you, did you notice it? Since you wouldn't know a joke if it got up and gave you a haircut, I doubt it.

anyway.. you seem to know the Amazonian rain forest tribes in some detail... great!! you must be related to them.. is it so??

To you moonstone, the Renaissance was just something that happened to other people, wasn't it?
What logic!! Pardon me ,if I'm getting too technical for your ‘logical observations’.
Don’t bother replying, you are about as much use to me as a hole in the head - an affliction with which you must be very familiar, having never had a brain.

MoonStone said...

@the moron who speaks only in nights...

you seem to think only you have wits, others are all losers...
reality check.... people have a real world and they celebrate festivals and give the virtual world a break... eternal losers like you will come and check their posts every half-an-hour ... oooh!! what should I speak on this night??....

I am happy to be a stupid than be whatever you are.... ;)

What she sad to me is for me.... why do you feel the need to jump around like some Australian Kangaroo....

Renaissance was centuries ago... With your thought process, you really seem to be that old... how can one live for so long... you are unique in more than one ways then... one being this old... and the other being... well yourself...

"logical observations"... "technical".... ROFL... you are such a kid... grow up dude... and I mean it...

and never try to pass your own credentials to other people.... they might just not accept...

MoonStone said...

@the flower I adore...

that would be for you to choose now... why would I tell you what to feel or do??

@my last comment...

there is a typo there.... oops!!
"What she sad to me...." is actually "What she said to me...."

It just caught my eye and I thought its better to make amends than to get a brand new adulation speech from the one who speaks only in nights....

Jasmine said...

@Moonstone,
I have to admit it-i'd love you to stick around "circa me"

MoonStone said...

@jasmine

now yours truly IS flattered... :)

just hope that weird guy doesn't shove me away .... pun intended...

anyway, you really must be something... the way he is acting is just ..... you know... I'd rather not put it in words...

i spoke but you had your head up your ass.... said...

‘@moonstonnned’-aka the dolt who just refuses to give up

you seem to think only you have wits, others are all losers...
reality check.... people have a real world and they celebrate festivals and give the virtual world a break... eternal losers like you will come and check their posts every half-an-hour ... oooh!! what should I speak on this night??....


In the quiet words of the Virgin Mary... come again? What makes your ‘logical’ brain cell (yeah, you’ve managed to grow one by now) conclude that ? Checking my posts every hour? Ooh Boy, I fail to recognise the correlation between ‘festivals’, "virtual world" and "your reality check". Extract the thesaurus out of your anus, young man, or old man, I wouldn’t know, wouldn’t care to know.


I am happy to be a stupid than be whatever you are.... ;)

“Confessions”? “Reality check”??

What she sad to me is for me.... why do you feel the need to jump around like some Australian Kangaroo....

Free country pal.

Renaissance was centuries ago... With your thought process, you really seem to be that old... how can one live for so long... you are unique in more than one ways then... one being this old... and the other being... well yourself...

With your singular brain cell, you failed to see the humor behind that statement. Wait a million more years, maybe you’ll grow a full brain by then. And again, this ‘old-young age’ conclusion of yours lacks logic. LOGIC.

Just look at what you have hinted upon the last few posts: ‘my night teachings’ , ‘your utter dumbness’ ... anyhow Im gettin a little tired reiterating what I’ve been tryin to say. Well the very fact that you’ve taken time out of your ‘day’ to express your view to an audience of potentially millions shows that so are you.

"logical observations"... "technical".... ROFL... you are such a kid... grow up dude... and I mean it...

So, you have to add a ‘I mean it’ suffix with every statement of yours that should be taken seriously? Shite, the toddler in me is no match for your profound wisdom. Thanks grand pa.


and never try to pass your own credentials to other people.... they might just not accept...

Point taken.
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Read between the lines…..and then go fuck your self.

i spoke to you last night.... said...

And thats it. I wont waste anymore of my time on a noob like you. You can cuss/ swear/ cry / moan/ etc etc or say anything about me. I wont bother replying.

MoonStone said...

@well... I would not put in words what I have in my mind for you... but you would know...

dude!! first things first... your language... be nice or grand pa can go farther than you can... ok!!

free country... yes... one which allows people like you to run their mouths and fingers like you are.... that's actually the biggest tragedy sane people have to endure...

and if you have the ability to cool down a little and read again, you will notice that it's you who is contradicting himself every few lines...

and I said "I mean it" (which is not a suffix, but a phrase) because I knew you wouldn't get it in a single go... so, read again... ok!!

you won't bother.... what?? yeah!! sure....
then why are you still reading this??
its ok, you know.... don't feel guilty... post again....

I won't quit... and slowly but surely, we will manage to get the comment count here really up...

@Jasmine

your blog is getting quite a few hits... eh!!

and I pray for you..
really, if you have something going on with this guy.... God bless you...

Peace Out!! :)

Jasmine said...

my blog needs comments!


and a new post too...

push said...

they're such immature kids! no good i tell ya.
xoxox
i can lauve you better!

your blog made me wanna smooch my ex. i hate you. :)

Jasmine said...

All apologies push!!!

xt@$y-13 said...

the comments make up for one nice readin

especially on new yrs eve.. now u ppl dnt go abt pityin me cz im readin blog's comments on such a blessed day

maybe u shud..

but all in all
i think u all miss the point, wish i could be the 1st to get it

Bonny said...

We have all the time to discuss something as vague as this..!! I find it Funny. Humans can dig down to the evolution of Universe, but they can never know what they actually are! :)

bunty said...

Being relevant: I'm innocent!